This Divine Chaos

Does All This Matter Matter? 

-Does everything we do matter, or does nothing matter?

We all have a gut response to answer this question. I believe if we were to look deeply into this question, our 'gut' response would be in more twists than a double windsor choking everything we may think we know.

What we do know (fact):

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. This is the third of Newton's laws. This is an unquestionable law of life.

What we aren't exactly sure of (theory):

The Butterfly Effect, which is dependent on the chaos theory, is a theory whose origins were birthed from many different scientists between the years 1890 to 1963. 

In a nutshell, the butterfly effect states that the air displaced by a  butterfly flapping his wings off the coast of Africa has enough potential to produce a hurricane off the east of coast of the United States. There is nothing significant in the weightless flap of the butterfly, but rather in the atmosphere and position that the butterfly is in.

...I believe this fact and theory walk hand in hand. Keep them in mind.

-So how does this relate to the actions we take in life?

Right now you are taking the time to read this theory. You will spend approximately five minutes to read this, and let's give five minutes for you to think about this theory. 

Now think of what you would have been doing had you not stumbled across this blog. The action of you reading this is causing a reaction that is hindering you from completing the set action that would have been. This action and reaction effects not only your present, but also your future. 

You may think that after you stop reading this your life will presume to be normal, as if this reading never happened. Let's say after you are done reading you complete every action that would have occurred. But you are now 10 to 15 minutes delayed in every action. Eventually this small expanse of time will throw of the course of your entire life.  For example, you finish reading you then hop in your car, now ten minutes delayed, and because of that ten minute delay you accidently avoid a car accident you would have been in if you had left ten mintues earlier. That is a good thing. Right?

Let's go further. Now because you are ten minutes delayed and avoided the car accident, you have now offset the course of the other driver with which you would have hit. The course of his life is now thrown off a bit. What you don't know, however, is the other driver now (because he never got in an accident with you)  accidently ran a stop sign, running over and killing a young girl who skipped happily home to where her mother promised to have cookies waiting. Good thing or bad?

-Are not both these scenarios bad or are they both good? Which of these situations was 'suppose' to happen? Right?

Now ten minutes may seem like a long time, so choose an action the takes a shorter expanse of time to be completed. i.e. holding your breath, closing your eyes etc. Applying the same principle as before, we can see how even the simplest decisions we choose will eventually effect us in some degree. The larger the decision, of course you would think, the larger the impact or reaction. But given the right time and conditions even the smallest decisions can cause a chain reaction leading to huge difference. The importance of the action does not matter. What matters is the fact that it will change your life as well as those around you.

Closing Question:

Is everything subject to random chaos or does everything happen for a reason? Were you suppose to read this or is your life suddenly set way off course? Nothing you will ever do will set your life on the course it was once headed. Do people just bounce of each other like ping-pong balls down a rocky  mountain side? Chaotic? Planned? Is God playing dice with life?

-If your answer is that life is preordained by some higher power, accept your fate. Does that mean the next time you get sick, or a family member dies it is God's will? Does that also mean to pray against such atrocities would be praying against the exact will of God?

-If your answer is that life is just random chaos, it doesn't matter what you do life is what it is. Being action-less is not an option. This leaves you one choice, being part of the chaos!

Strike the Match!

Everything starts where it ends: 

The idea of starting a blog first came to me when a friend (Melissa) said to me with a gentle hint of sarcasm, "I like your mind." I laughed and thought nothing of it. A short time later, an old friend commented on an art piece I had done stating the same phrase, "I like your mind." Coincidence? "My mind" has always been expressed through art or music. There has always been a bit of irony between me and these outlets of expression. Something has always been lost in the translation of color or noise. For instance, I hate loud obnoxious music, but about 60% of the music I produce falls under the 'hardcore/metal/dumb' genre. Instead of the low tone blues/bluegrass/folk music my heart melts for, my throat melts in producing ridiculous yelps of madness into a microphone for a bunch of hoodlems who cannot even tell what I am saying. Another case of irony, the fact that I love life in black in white. Not a boring life, but a literal life; a life that can be figured out, and makes sense, in your head. Despite my love for realism, my paintings honestly have no meaning. As well as having no meaning, they are done in the bright colorful fashion that is appealing to only those tripping on acid. It is within this loss of meaning, during the translation of my paint to canvas (or tongue to motion), that comes a pursuit of clarity. 

To Clarify:

-i hate capitalizing "i" when pertaining to myself. Call me buddhist. 

-this blog will probably be explicit. With the words in the English language it is very hard to be precise with emotion. So, if using more 'colorful' words bothers you, i am by no means trying to offend you. i want this blog to be me in my most raw state, perhaps one day i will be refined enough to cringe at thoughts of using explicit language.

-there will be no common thread throughout these blogs. Some days i will write about theology, some days i might write a poem. Who knows?However, i will try to write them once a day, even if they are not posted everyday.

-These blogs may at time seem critical, but i assure you, i speak my opinion, not truth. i feel that if more people would speak there opinions (with action) truth could be found.

- I am not a good writer, please be patient. If something does not come across clearly, please ask me to refraze<----oh i also like to use 'f' in place of 'ph.'

The Closing Note: 

We have to establish one solid principle: the 'playing board' which these posts will be played off of. You cannot play monopoly on a chess board, no more than you can discuss politics off the basis of anarchy, or establishing peace through war. Throughout these blogs many religions will be mentioned and many ways of thinking will be used, even if i do not necessarily agree with them. So please, if i am talking about the immediate mayan doomsday of 2012 (which i will) don't throw at me how Jesus is going to rapture you in the glory cloud and a bunch of Escotology non-sense. 

...LETS DO THIS!